Sunday, January 25, 2009

Cardboard Testimonies

A friend sent me an email with this link and I just wanted to share it. It is powerful! I cried as I watched.

I thought about what my piece of cardboard would say and I am still not certain. Though I think a good start would be "ENSLAVED TO BITTERNESS"

See, from 2003-2005, I lived in a constant state of bitterness and anger towards my husband because he joined the Army Reserve in March of 2003. I felt abandoned and rejected and boy did I lash out at him and singlehandedly nearly destroyed our marriage. But then God spoke to me through I Corinthians 13, the Love Chapter. I realized that I was saying with my mouth that I loved Brian. But my actions were telling a WHOLE different story. The Word says "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." Wow, was I pounded with the knowledge that I was NOT living out love. With that revelation, I was delivered of my biterness. I won't say that it wasn't a battle from that point on, but knowledge is power, so with that knowledge, I was able to make better choices with my words and my actions. Wow! I hadn't intended to share this much when I began this post, but I suppose there is a reason for everything. What I had intended on sharing was the heaviness that was on my heart for my aunt and uncle today. My uncle is dying. His body is shutting down and has been for some time now, though he has greatly worsened in the last 72 hours. Please pray for comfort and peace for them. We are not praying for healing, because we know healing is coming: the ultimate healing. Not much of an ending to this post, I know. But it is all I have at this point.


Raggedy Girl said...

I must be difficult to admit your need to change your attitude toward your hubby and it shows how willing you were to change that you can be that honest. I care so much for Diane and feel so helpless beyond prayer to help her.
Good wishes for a really nice day,
Roberta Anne

Diane said...

Okay, first of all, I cannot believe I haven't already posted a comment to tell you how much I loved the video. You are a wonderfully brave and coureageous lady to open your heart and your life for scrutiny the way you do. I admire you for that and I LOVE you for everything you are and do!

Aunt Di

Diane said...

Hey! Just wanted to tell you I've nominated your blog for an award! Stop by my place later and get the details! I love reading your blog and have grown so much because of your honesty. Luv you sweetie!

Aunt Di